A Year Ago...

A year ago I woke up next to the boy I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. We had a pretty rough past but we both believed we could put it behind us...and we worked really hard and succeeded for a long time, but I guess things just aren't meant to be. He was the most important part of my life and kept me going when I wanted to give up. I hate that I had to go behind my parents back to be with him and that hurt me every day but I did what I had to do. I'm not going to say that I wish things could be different today because I don't. I know we don't work as a couple but we did make a good team. I know I have people standing behind me and supporting me in everything I do...but it was different with him. He really believed in me. I miss sharing my passions with him, like piano and horseback riding. Those were some of the best moments in my life...when I accomplished something with a horse and I knew he saw it. And I really haven't played piano for a very long...and I don't mean sit down and play a song...I mean REALLY play. The worst part about everything is that I wish it would have ended better. The last time I saw him I was begging him to give us another chance because we were doing so good. He told me we would talk about it once he got settled it...but I knew he was just saying that to make me feel better. I knew he couldn't wait to have parties and have his choice of anyone. The worst part? I left crying my eyes out, got in my truck and called him saying I forgot to give him money. And I simply drove away hoping that if I became like all the other girls that liked him he'd reconsider...needless to say I went to college and we didn't talk for a very long time. I wish the last time we saw each other would have been the night he snuck into my room. But I guess we can't always get what we want now do we?